Last night I went to bed thinking about Turkeys and woke up thinking about Roosters!
Sometimes, when I hear myself say some things that I say, I cannot believe I said them.
Or worse, I believe it, I just wish that I hadn't.
Last night, during the night, a rooster crowed in my head.
It wasn't a Turkey, it was a rooster!
I was reminded very quickly of the story of Peter in Matt 26:31-75.
As I was tossing and turning to get back to sleep, I realized that I have said some things over the past few days that have dishonored God and were NOT Thankful.
I mentioned last post that we had our Annual Gala for the ministry last week. We have worked for 6 months on that event, the last couple of weeks have been brutal. We put our hearts into the program, the decorations, the comfort of the guests, the food choices.
It is like having a wedding once a year. Hard, Hard work.
This event represents the main opportunity each year for us to raise money for the ministry. We actually set our budget for the next year based upon it's results. As a team, we set our financial goals very high this year. In spite of the economy we reached for the stars in our expectations. We have heard of some other crisis pregnancy ministries who have scored big at this years fundraisers. We were determined to follow their lead.
Ours is not a selfish goal, or so I thought. Our desire is to serve women. To minister to families. To save babies. To share truth with teens. To spread the truth about post abortion trauma to the nations and even the world. To share the love of Jesus Christ to all that God sends our way.
These are lofty goals!
Peter and his disciple buddies had lofty goals. Verse 35 of Matthew 26 Peter says:
"Even if I have to die with you, I will NEVER deny you!" and all the disciples said the same thing.
Our Gala was fabulous.
The program was great.
The food was excellent.
The guests raved about the evening.
The decorations were stunning. (see photos in the post below).
However, as we have tallied our commitments, our financial expectations have not been met.
We did not come anywhere near our goal.
It seems we may have even fallen short of last year.
We have been discouraged. We have been disappointed and I have spoken it.
Each time I have been asked about the "results" of the evening, I have said--
"It was a beautiful night but we did not make as much money as we had hoped"
Oh my goodness.
Last night, the rooster crowed!
I can not even believe that I have said that. I feel so connected to Peter's heart. I actually always have. He and I have so much in common and most of it lies between the chin and the nose!
My mouth so often goes before my brain and even before my heart.
I love God. I am thankful. I am blessed. Sometimes my mouth does not reflect my thankful heart.
Last night, I did the same thing that Peter did in Matthew 26:75--"He went outside and bitterly wept". Well, I didn't go outside (it was 1am!), and I didn't "bitterly weep" but I did repent sincerely and I did cry out to God for forgiveness.
At our Gala,
God was lifted up.
550 guests heard about the ministry of Life Impact Network.
Old friends were reunited.
Our guests enjoyed a wonderful meal and an evening of fellowship.
People were challenged by the work of the ministry and committed to give their offerings to support it.
An opportunity to receive Christ as Saviour was presented and accepted by several guests who thought that they were coming for the "cheaper chicken".
Who can measure that?
Who can be thankful enough?
The rooster crowed in my heart last night and led me to Thanksgiving.
It is so easy to get there from wherever we are. It is three simple steps away.
Step 1) Repent
Step 2) Receive the forgiveness that Christ has for you.
Step 3) Rejoice in Thanksgiving...in other words CROW your heart out!!!!
I will be picking up my Turkey today but Roosters will be on my mind.